Black Friday

[From BLACK]

Black Friday Or A Month Ago Today

My dad died a month ago today.

It was Black Friday.

I felt the magnitude of his death

in my body

On Thursday. It was

Thanksgiving.

I couldn’t get out of bed with the weight

of his (my) guilt and the realization of his

demise collecting in my bones.

On Thursday. It was 

Thanksgiving.

I had been preparing for that day for

a lot of my life but

when it finally came, it was Friday.

Black Friday.

time froze

and accelerated at the same

time

But mostly I just felt relieved.

My dad’s last words to me were

“I want to blow my brains out with a .38”

I’m relieved he didn’t have to.

He didn’t have to.

He told me that

one afternoon in August

on a Friday. It was a sunny, yellow Friday

when I was stranded in Salt Lake City with

my summer fling.

He was an Aquarius like my dad.

My dad died a month ago today.

It was Black Friday.


written 12/27/15

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